Posts Tagged ‘gratitude’


2012 was a year of a whole lotta “Really,” “Oh man,” “WTF!” and always “Thank you, God.”  Or perhaps better known to my psyche as, “Well, f**k me and the horse I rode in on.” My friends who find me to be a bit Pollyanna may be shocked that I’m actually writing this, but my year was as challenging emotionally, spiritually & physically as any I can remember.

But I made it through and so I must testify. Have I grown?  “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” certainly resonates. I know I have a biological gift… more serotonin production than most even on a difficult day.  And of course my regular skate-dancing is responsible for more endorphins than any other exercise regimen I’ve ever experienced.  So once again and every day I’m grateful.

I finished & released my very first solo CD, “Peace of My Heart,” which brought me the kind of professional satisfaction/happiness that’s almost indescribable.  I spent weeks in my hometown, Newport, RI with my Shves and was a musician again.  I finally saw my Cali bro & nephews for the first time in over 2 years.  After 4 fab Gsons our first beautiful granddaughter was born this year. In a Los Angeles 30 year reunion I partied like it was 1999 with the Red Onion gang & my gorgeous niece. The gifts & blessings were joyous.  The trials & tribulations were monumental.  Gospel music became a powerful source of inspiration, comfort & soul soothing in my skate-dancing.  The first half of the year Kirk Franklin’s “I Smile” was my anthem (the links are to YouTube) and Paul Porter’s “I Made It Through” was my celebratory chant in the second half.  I’m not a Christian although I’m guessing had I lived back in the day & place, Jesus surely would have been my rabbi.  Whatever you call God… He, She, Lord, Allah… and this will not be a dissertation on my beliefs… the passion, vibrancy, power & joy of gospel music is undeniable.  And I was lifted & expressing gratitude daily.

My family & friends have been challenged in profound ways this past year.  But we’re strong stock and most of us made it through. I Thank You, God.

My dad, Robbie Robin, might’ve said, “It’s gonna be keen in 2013” or maybe serene.  I hope & pray for those things & more for us all.  And I wish you a very happy, healthy freakin’ new year!  With all my love ~

Caryn

Peace out.

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