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She would’ve been 54 today.

Lula (Lu, Lori), my baby-girl, so innocent & young, so worldly & pained, so wild & precious, so loving & beautiful.  She passed in May and I’m sure if a Maypole dance had been happening in heaven, she’d joyously have ruled the ribbons.

I really thought I’d have written/blogged about her by now and certainly after I saw the YouTube videos of the service and our eulogies, because I just couldn’t write anything when I was in California with her family.  Her brother, John, and childhood friend, Kelly Drysdale were going to speak and then I would just let my heart do the rest.  She had requested more than once over the years that I sing Moondance at her wedding so this became that time.

I guess sometimes it’s better to just talk and sing.  My eulogy starts at about 10 minutes in.  Click here for Lori’s Memorial Service on YouTube.

Happy Birthday, my sweet.

As Lu & I would both say… with all my love & heart,

Caryn


2012 was a year of a whole lotta “Really,” “Oh man,” “WTF!” and always “Thank you, God.”  Or perhaps better known to my psyche as, “Well, f**k me and the horse I rode in on.” My friends who find me to be a bit Pollyanna may be shocked that I’m actually writing this, but my year was as challenging emotionally, spiritually & physically as any I can remember.

But I made it through and so I must testify. Have I grown?  “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” certainly resonates. I know I have a biological gift… more serotonin production than most even on a difficult day.  And of course my regular skate-dancing is responsible for more endorphins than any other exercise regimen I’ve ever experienced.  So once again and every day I’m grateful.

I finished & released my very first solo CD, “Peace of My Heart,” which brought me the kind of professional satisfaction/happiness that’s almost indescribable.  I spent weeks in my hometown, Newport, RI with my Shves and was a musician again.  I finally saw my Cali bro & nephews for the first time in over 2 years.  After 4 fab Gsons our first beautiful granddaughter was born this year. In a Los Angeles 30 year reunion I partied like it was 1999 with the Red Onion gang & my gorgeous niece. The gifts & blessings were joyous.  The trials & tribulations were monumental.  Gospel music became a powerful source of inspiration, comfort & soul soothing in my skate-dancing.  The first half of the year Kirk Franklin’s “I Smile” was my anthem (the links are to YouTube) and Paul Porter’s “I Made It Through” was my celebratory chant in the second half.  I’m not a Christian although I’m guessing had I lived back in the day & place, Jesus surely would have been my rabbi.  Whatever you call God… He, She, Lord, Allah… and this will not be a dissertation on my beliefs… the passion, vibrancy, power & joy of gospel music is undeniable.  And I was lifted & expressing gratitude daily.

My family & friends have been challenged in profound ways this past year.  But we’re strong stock and most of us made it through. I Thank You, God.

My dad, Robbie Robin, might’ve said, “It’s gonna be keen in 2013” or maybe serene.  I hope & pray for those things & more for us all.  And I wish you a very happy, healthy freakin’ new year!  With all my love ~

Caryn

Peace out.


Big week coming up… Simon Cowell’s new X Factor auditions in Miami. Registration on Wednesday and hopefully audition Thursday. I say hopefully because not everyone who registers and spends 2 days at the facility gets to audition. Understandable after hearing that 15,000 showed up in Los Angeles. I actually submitted a 1 minute video to a local television station here to try to win a “Front of the Line Pass.” The winners were spared the registration day and would be among the first to audition on Thursday. I did not win. Damn. Thousands of people… I watch it on Idol and sitting in the comfort of my bedroom, I think it’s a phenomenal process but not one I look forward to participating in. But, as my niece said, “It’s just 2 days out of your whole life.” It might even be fun. I’m not trying to convince myself, really. I think it’ll be an amazing, colossal experience, operative word being “colossal.” So please let my temperamental voice and questionable nerves be on my side on Thursday.

I also learned last week that America’s Got Talent is accepting video auditions till April 10th, and unlike X Factor’s a cappella one verse/chorus, their submissions can be 2-3 minutes with music so perhaps I’ll have a better shot. Oh, if I only had a band!

So I’m going for it all. Of course with my CD almost ready to be released, ANY air time would be incredible, so with this synchronicity it kinda feels like SOMETHING is supposed to be. But whatever happens will be fine. I do know more energy from you all can only help and I thank you in advance. Please wish me luck, say a prayer, send good vibes, whatever your preference, and I promise I’ll do my best.

And thank you all so much for the encouragement and support over the years. I’ve been blessed with more performance work and opportunities than most and I’m completely grateful for everything. As an entertainer I know I’ll see many more smiles, finger poppin’ and dancing feet when the gigs start ’cause the tracks are smokin’! Can’t wait for you to hear! See you soon.

Love & kisses & hugs,

Caryn


It’s been a while since I’ve blogged a ramble, dear friends, and this is just a quickie. The link below is a video that I’d forgotten about from our first bathroom skate-dance shoot but found today and posted on YouTube & Facebook. I’m not lip-syncing to one of my tunes, just dancing to one of my all time favorites, the Boyz II Men version of the Isley Brothers classic. No matter the artist, it always grooves me into a little piece of heaven… for the love of you.


Once again our bathroom’s the stage and here’s tonight’s skate-dance video of Deja Vu, my first single from the soon to be finished (really) CD.


2 years ago today he passed. It was just a few days after I’d uploaded my first YouTube video, Hold On I’m Comin’, and not too long after that my CD project was conceived. Isaac is one of the reasons I love to sing. I came of age with all his Sam & Dave hits and never stopped singing them. Those records, probably more than any others, helped define my “rocnsol” attitude. Now with the CD almost completed, I’m ready to start skate-dance performing too, so yesterday my hubby & I “designed” our stage (the bathroom) and once again to an Isaac tune, I tested the waters to a rough version of “I Thank You.” You’d think I could lip-sync to my own stuff but apparently not while skating! Practice, practice, practice.

I uploaded the video last night and had not consciously realized it was the anniversary of his death today so once again I pay homage. Isaac, I thank you.